19/24 2008 "why didn't ???????????????????" arrrrrr 2008 some mourning of not being right in the mind, basically on cpunks list i have attitude/experience of acting confident and being wrong. hey, that sounds similar to the scene where traffick boss shoots himself with his backwards gun. 2012 baaaaaaaaaaga baga baga so :/ it's gotten so hard to continue i might as well spam th-- 2012 traffick boss sits b-- 2013 --y the quantum-event-fire [--with janitor or intern? [warming hands? 2013 {hey i got some food from the car, so i am not without food today. it's mostly peanuts.} 2013 {also feeling less ill after the coding attempts (and confused banter on stackoverflow) ! much less ill !} 2018 2027 one of the strategies today was something partly learned internally and partly online in the reddit DID community behaviors and choices weren't quite working for karl and instead pursued reducing suffering :) this helped work with parts wanting lunch and a painful feeling in my chest that i thought was heartburn from making digestive acid without food to digest maybe so i remembered how confusion worsens a lot when you are too confused to tell you are suffering :) and i got shades so bright lights wouldn't hurt my eyes and i got food and i lubricated my eye which makes trigeminal pain if i don't :) also this morning i took 4 baby aspirin 81s ! not sure how much that is, i just tried to do more than 1 2029 also we like drinking water when we have a headache or feel ill. ... been hard the water drinking :s getting better :) 2030 2039 do you know how to be a triangle?? maybe one with a bun around their butt? [aspergers?] 2039 [karl wouldn't say that!] [no :s] 2039 triangle triangle 2041 oh er? uncertain ! 2041 tell about uncertain >( how nerdy is triangle. tell? {uhm [[[i can try to tell. the issue is that we were influened to have beliefs that are strange to karl ... and it is not about whether those beliefs are true or false ...]] aspergers butt bum !!!! asperger :p 2042 [it is about them being focused on criticising him as if other people were doing it.] {oh.} 2042 [it's hard to full-- 2043 --y describe.] 2043 :} oops 2043 2048 MISTAKE mistake 2048 we think the biggest reason [aspergers] is a mistake is [posisbly-- 2-- 2049 dagabaga ! bugigger 2053 OOPS [sending