we were doing really poorly from really hard task and decided, hey i'll just rent a powerful server for a day or two and run a huge AI on it for fun it was fun! but i get inhibited if i try to do anything with the AI it feels great to just let it sit there, paying money, totally worth the price so i was thinking maybe i will get my own rig for a huge AI and just let it sit there! it's obvious that's how it goes after you get it i could get a supercomputer and put a huge AI on it and just let it sit there. and i was wonder, what would the point of this be? why would some experience or alter or influence encourage such a situation? of course there are explanations from excitements and fears and triggers and urges combining but it is more fun to imagine that a mysterious hacker wants to use me to mine information massively by running secret code on my dime and i guess, if it gives immense relief from psychological terrors, it's reasonable, right? like, expensive psychotherapists cost money too so maybe it would be fun to get a supercomputer and a superpowerful AI and then just let it sit there for the purpose of any hackers who wanted to use it :D but i guess it's nice to do things that make sense, too. it's weird if i get something and don't wan to use it, especially if it's expensive. it would have made more sense to not get it in the first place. maybe i could spam some of my inhibitions and ideas of what i could do if they weren't there later i dunno, but i only have the system for a day or two and i primarily got it to feel better, so so far it's doing its job.