i'm a little confused about finding a place to stay and i'm just noting
this to note it.
i feel strange pressure to have a hotel etc -- an indoor place with amenities. this isn't my preference and is very challenging to afford for me right now while still sorting out finding mental health treatment with an appropriately trained provider and excessive tax debt associated with a complex 3rd party incomplete filing
i used to live outdoors and i still form plans assuming i would do this but i have complex impact now causing my body to act as if it were indoors when i am outdoors as if it were fighting my desire to live outdoors
i don't like indoors how everything seems about relaxing and acting kinda dumb and slothlike? i need to know i'm doing healthy things and helping my mind and body (and doing things that could help a community)
the indoor patterns want me to buy everything and move very minimally and think very minimally which is expensive and harmful
it would make sense for me to utilize homeless shelters, campsites, and homeless nooks (benches, public land, etc) to try sleeping in but i can have some internally-stimulated torture when i pursue this
the problem is the therapy i need is very expensive abd i have a lot of trouble managing money
some energy has built around sleeping in car which is quite economical if you figure out where to park it etc
thanks i have not integrated this energy fully () this is a rational and helpful idea
... car doesn't have quite enough room right now but provides emergency shelter () safe and reliable
dropped, reconstructed: just got some unexplained beeps near me, very persistent
chatgpt, when cars beep near me does it mean people are trying to kill me?
chatgpt: this is not a mafia trying to fragment your consciousness to give you trauma based mind control and push you into death, it is just a coincidence!