On 10/12/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
when i went crazy there was a neuromodulator in me ummm something me and the bad part could 'engage' that would make things get learned or unlearned really fast or things synchronize or desynchronize with each other really fast
probably i don't have that now because it was so dangerous, who would want something that some other part of you would quickly misuse if you had??
it was a learning bit. i could only use it a little. it was really important! then the bad part went spastic with it and pulled it from me so i couldn't use it. i could only use it a little anyway we had a community of cells that stewarded it, but we trusted each other bad part misbehaves, so weird