i’m having some trouble eating again. i last ate a couple days ago. my weight is still 144 and i am six feet tall. it was higher earlier though, i had a good stretch. i’m really tense and having my issues worse, after telling some things to a new therapist whom i’m traveling to and from some distance to see, and trying to read the handbooks for my potential internship regarding learning to teach wilderness skills. i’ve canceled the internship to ease the pressure. the therapist is the first one i’ve started seeing specific for the larger category of experiences i have. it feels like most of this severe tension may be from this. right now i am in a dissociated coping state where i am carefully managing myself to not stimulate experiences similar to a psychotic break or a seizure or a ptsd flashback. i’d just like to have a meal, and after sharing this i think i can. thank you,