Hi, kamoshi!  Sorry, I am terribly late with the reading of all my lists, even the favorite ones. 

I didn't read your previous messages and also Nick's ones yet.  Sincerely ask your pardon for answering without knowing you and your problems.

Please, do not harm yourself.  Already tried the suicide and, well, it won't bring real inner peace, even when you feel pain and despair.  

Sometimes, I do know very well, the pain is bigger, much stronger than us...  and we feel so hurtful and exhausted of all the things and people...  But I swear it is *not* the best choice.

May I write to you in private tomorrow?  I will be a little bit busy tonight.  In any case, I strongly recommend to search for specialized support, dear.

Take care, boy.  Live and make this world better, happier, fairer for all.

Tender kisses and hugs,

c.