quote below, a typo is fixed, s/programmer/programmed/ ----- it is easier to remember what to do when one begins needing to dissociate to stay with the work. dissociation involves splitting one's concepts in two, some for each part, so that each intense emotion has concepts that satisfy it. when one repeatedly dissociates it then really severely shrinks one's working memory. Reply | Reply to all | Forward | Print | Delete | Show original Add star Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many<gmkarl@gmail.com> Sat, Dec 17, 2022 at 5:42 AM To: cypherpunks <cypherpunks@lists.cpunks.org> Reply | Reply to all | Forward | Print | Delete | Show original my flat_tree and log seem a mess to me atm, and likely made by a psychologically programmed trigger, which i dissociate from to separate the subtle and severe terror from the programming, if i want to stay. it then becomes very confusing that the mess is made of multiple factoring changes to the content, to my smaller dissociated conciousness, and the confusion around this tends to quickly trigger the mess actions again. with extended practice dissociating, i can toughen against that to a degree, and keep staying, but my memory shrinks very small.