sometimes when i’m trying really hard to use part of my brain i write little smidges of code similar to my brain issue. it’s honestly nice to just use my faculties in any way at all at those times. this often looks like two object classes with method names that talk about or simplistically roleplay one attacking or stopping the other. i was thinking recently of q viewpoint around that near learning and skill, and the idea that systems that adapt or pursue goals have “sweet spots” of adaptation. i could see myself as avoiding these areas of effective behavior and learning, instead engaging the ineffective ones. other parts too …. i don’t remember well … anyway i experience these things for years, and one of the things going on is my brain is always modeling optimal skill improvement by focusing on the areas that avoid this most strongly.