Help, please? I will be considered a kind of "new Jake" much soon and after the lies, they also want my death. Sorry, I love to be alive. I do fucking love it. I do exist and I am who I am, not a fiction.
They want to break my family's heart, my friends' hearts. Shit, I am not the best person in this world but I really tried "loving, caring, sharing, being excellent."
I promised never to kill people. Never. I do not want to change this, but I do want to protect my beloved ones. I am a coding fracass and had the confirmation in the last days. It is disgusting to notice I was really thinking two horrible things: kill people and/or become cold stones of ice, without no heart, no compassion.
I can _not_ want to become like them. Please, just need help for keeping me alive and sane. I will never to kill anyone, even myself. Sorry, if they want my life, they will need to take it in person. I am wasted and will live, but some of my beloved ones will _not_ survive to a fucking disgusting scandal. My parents, all the people that I wanted to protect and I will hurt.
Please, help. Sincere excuses for my broken heart. Jake, I need you, sorry for asking it.
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Loving. Caring. Sharing. Being Excellent To Each Other And To Our Hackerspace. <3
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"Don't let anyone rob you of your imagination, your creativity, or your curiosity. It's your place in the world; it's your life. Go on and do all you can with it, and make it the life you want to live." - Mae Jemison