On Thu, Jun 30, 2022, 11:11 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On Thu, Jun 30, 2022, 10:20 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On Wed, Jun 29, 2022, 7:52 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On Wed, Jun 29, 2022, 1:51 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On Tue, Jun 28, 2022, 5:11 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On Tue, Jun 28, 2022, 10:30 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On Mon, Jun 27, 2022, 5:39 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
> > > On Mon, Jun 27, 2022, 11:40 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One > Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote: > >> On 6/26/22, Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many >> <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote: >> > On Sun, Jun 26, 2022, 8:56 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One >> Victim of >> > Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote: >> > >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 - i started logging >> publicly to the >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> list >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> again. >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> i >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> started >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> by just logging time spent on >> planning and >> >> >>>>>>> thinking about >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> it. >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> after >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> two attempts i was able to do it >> rather than >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> think >> >> >>>>>>> about >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> it, with >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> effort. >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 0456 ET: [x] 10 seconds >> cold water >> >> >>>>>>> after warm >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> water, >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> hard >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-10 1223 ET: [x] 10 seconds >> warm, 10 >> >> >>>>>>> seconds cold. >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> easy. >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> food after. >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-11 0553 [X] 10 warm 10 cold >> with food >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-11 1247 [x] 10w 10c food easy >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 0217 [x] 9w 11c food after >> medium-easy >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>> 2022-06-12 0848 [x] 8w 13c food after >> medium-easy >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 1852 [x] long w 13c food after >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> medium-easy >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>> 2022-06-13 0922 [x] 8w 13c food after >> medium-hard >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >> 2022-06-13 1851 [x] long w 13c food after >> medium-hard >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> > 2022-06-14 0702 [x] medium w 13c with food >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-14 2019 [x] 8/20w 13/31c food after, >> medium-easy >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-15 0824 [x] 8+13/? c food after, >> medium-easy, >> >> >>>>>>> outdoors >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-15 1435 [x] 8+14/40c food after, >> irrational state >> >> of >> >> >>>>>>> mind, >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>> indoors >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>> 2022-06-16 1502 69F 20/1:25cold 68F food after, >> easy, >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>> indoors >> >> >>>>>>> >>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>>> 2022-06-17 1051 21/1:04cold 67.4F food after, >> medium-easy, >> >> >>>>>>> indoors >> >> >>>>>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>>>> >>> 2022-06-17 1929 unk warm, 22/1:20 cold, 58.8F, food >> after, >> >> >>>>>>> >>> medium, >> >> >>>>>>> >>> indoors >> >> >>>>>>> >>> >> >> >>>>>>> >> 2022-06-18 0921 53.7F 22/1:12 cold with food >> medium-hard >> >> >>>>>>> >> >> >> >>>>>>> > 2022-06-18 1653 53.7F 22/1:20 cold with hot food medium >> >> >>>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> 2022-06-19 0736 56.4F 12/:30 cold + 22/1:15 cold with >> warm food, >> >> >>>>>>> medium-hard >> >> >>>>>> >> >> >>>>>> >> >> >>>>>>> 2022-06-20 0547 61.7F 22/1:36 with food and sugar >> cookie, hard to >> >> >>>>>>> start, medium to do >> >> >>>>>> >> >> >>>>>> 2022-06-20 2029 22/1:23 65.3F with warmish food, >> medium-hard >> >> >>>>> >> >> >>>> 2022-06-21 0942 23/1:35 65.4F with warm food, sugar cookie, >> and >> >> >>>> nutritional yeast, medium >> >> >>>> >> >> >>> 2022-06-22 1845 long warm + 30/2:30 cool 61.7F hard-easy, >> food after >> >> >>> >> >> >> 2022-06-24 0959 2:30 cool medium-easy with sugar cookie, food >> after >> >> >> >> >> > 2022-06-25 1501 24/unk cool then long warm then 24/unk cool >> >> 2022-06-26 25/1:19 cool, medium-hard >> > >> > >> > 2022-06-26 1940 24/1:20 63.1F with food, medium-hard >> >> 2022-06-27 1137 food w/out cold water >> > >> 2022-06--27 1738 1/0:13 53.6F hard > > 2022-06-28 1028 warm then a little cool for total of 3 mins
2022-06-28 1710 2/0:07 cool, food after, held pee
2022-06-29 1350 2/0:05 cool, food after, hard
2022-06-29 1950 2/0:07 cool, food after, medium
2022-06-30 1019 2/0:11 cool, medium-easy, food after
2022-06-30 11;10 2/10.7 cool, medium-easy, no food, nap after
2022-06-30 1541 2/0:09 cool, medium, food after It seemed pretty easy, so I briefly imagined I was trying really hard to do it and this restimulated the inhibitions >_> . I can kind of feel them developing. The trying hard thing, I value, because it's kind of near planning and other basic parts of doing stuff.