goal:
- hold SAFETY, EXCITEMENT, and HAPPINESS while pursuing a behavior gently and intentionally, like wim hof with cold water
- keep duration very short at start, and journal
- associate with food and reward with food and candy

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3 day 1 1211 1
try 4 day 1 before 1603 count 1
try 6 day 2 before 0716 count 1
#7 day 2 0953 count 1
#8 day 2 1031 count 1
#9 day 2 1507 count 1
#10 day 2 1845 count 1
11. day 2 1905 ct 1
12. day 2 1958 ct 1
13. day 3 1323 ct 1
14. day 3 1528 ct 1
peppermint then mix x 4
15. dy 3 1822 ct 1
part. humus wrap
shorter but i think it’s good because still working on simply trying it being ok
on a difficult drive :)
i didn’t do it this morning getting up too, to help take slowly
16, dy 3 2232 ct 1
getting a little easier
peppermint then nuts and raisins
17. dy 4 0623 ct 1
peppermint, then planning nuts and raisins and videogame
some parts seemed pretty unsure, shortly after thinking about how intensely to feel it. these years i can feel things too strongly in a way that can seem damaging, and considering this was scary for some. did not feel all the way this time.
quite sleepy (so big success got up :s)