it's hard to relate around this.

everything seems hard in my life, due to a cognitive issue I have where my other behaviors specifically harm everything I try to do.

the reason to work with coreboot is roughly to do _anything at all_ with my skillset.

yes, I want to do shielding. that is much harder because it is for reasons. coreboot is _just for fun_.

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actually, karl?, i/you want to make the new system work as a low-end machine learning system. we're also trying to rebuild norms of information security, and do it open source and offline.

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this is true: but it turns out that's highly ineffective. the system doesn't work for this -- I get to port my own bios if I want it to. meanwhile, machine learning is available on colab for free.

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ok it's confusing.

we want to do coreboot _to do anything at all_ _for fun_. _we need to be able to work on something_.

it's hard because of two parts, inhibition around relating them.

what's relevent is that this project has a lot of short term emotional value for us, and we have invested a lot of money in it.

karl never imagined it would be this hard to build a computer from parts according to instructions. his peers in middle school were building computers, and he was top of his class. it's strange to have this breaking over and over.

it might make sense to take a break to improve the financial situation a little.

this is harder for us. making money or reducing expenses stimulates the issues more strongly than things that have little return.

karl is really frustrated to have tasks attacked inside him the ways they are.

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thank you.