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On 6/26/22, Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many
<gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
> On Sun, Jun 26, 2022, 8:56 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of
> Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 - i started logging publicly to the
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> list
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> again.
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> i
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> started
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> by just logging time spent on planning and
>> >>>>>>> thinking about
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> it.
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> after
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> two attempts i was able to do it rather than
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> think
>> >>>>>>> about
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> it, with
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> effort.
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 0456 ET: [x] 10 seconds cold water
>> >>>>>>> after warm
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> water,
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> hard
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-10 1223 ET: [x] 10 seconds warm, 10
>> >>>>>>> seconds cold.
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> easy.
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> food after.
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-11 0553 [X] 10 warm 10 cold with food
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-11 1247 [x] 10w 10c food easy
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 0217 [x] 9w 11c food after medium-easy
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>> 2022-06-12 0848 [x] 8w 13c food after medium-easy
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 1852 [x] long w 13c food after
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> medium-easy
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>> 2022-06-13 0922 [x] 8w 13c food after medium-hard
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >> 2022-06-13 1851 [x] long w 13c food after medium-hard
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> > 2022-06-14 0702 [x] medium w 13c with food
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-14 2019 [x] 8/20w 13/31c food after, medium-easy
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-15 0824 [x] 8+13/? c food after, medium-easy,
>> >>>>>>> outdoors
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-15 1435 [x] 8+14/40c food after, irrational state
>> of
>> >>>>>>> mind,
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>> indoors
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>>> 2022-06-16 1502 69F 20/1:25cold 68F food after, easy,
>> >>>>>>> >>>>> indoors
>> >>>>>>> >>>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>>> 2022-06-17 1051 21/1:04cold 67.4F food after, medium-easy,
>> >>>>>>> indoors
>> >>>>>>> >>>>
>> >>>>>>> >>> 2022-06-17 1929 unk warm, 22/1:20 cold, 58.8F, food after,
>> >>>>>>> >>> medium,
>> >>>>>>> >>> indoors
>> >>>>>>> >>>
>> >>>>>>> >> 2022-06-18 0921 53.7F 22/1:12 cold with food medium-hard
>> >>>>>>> >>
>> >>>>>>> > 2022-06-18 1653 53.7F 22/1:20 cold with hot food medium
>> >>>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-19 0736 56.4F 12/:30 cold + 22/1:15 cold with warm food,
>> >>>>>>> medium-hard
>> >>>>>>
>> >>>>>>
>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-20 0547 61.7F 22/1:36 with food and sugar cookie, hard to
>> >>>>>>> start, medium to do
>> >>>>>>
>> >>>>>> 2022-06-20 2029 22/1:23 65.3F with warmish food, medium-hard
>> >>>>>
>> >>>> 2022-06-21 0942 23/1:35 65.4F with warm food, sugar cookie, and
>> >>>> nutritional yeast, medium
>> >>>>
>> >>> 2022-06-22 1845 long warm + 30/2:30 cool 61.7F hard-easy, food after
>> >>>
>> >> 2022-06-24 0959 2:30 cool medium-easy with sugar cookie, food after
>> >>
>> > 2022-06-25 1501 24/unk cool then long warm then 24/unk cool
>> 2022-06-26 25/1:19 cool, medium-hard
>
>
> 2022-06-26 1940 24/1:20 63.1F with food, medium-hard

2022-06-27 1137 food w/out cold water

2022-06--27 1738 1/0:13 53.6F hard

2022-06-28 1028 warm then a little cool for total of 3 mins
2022-06-28 1710 2/0:07 cool, food after, held pee
2022-06-29 1350 2/0:05 cool, food after, hard
2022-06-29 1950 2/0:07 cool, food after, medium
2022-06-30 1019 2/0:11 cool, medium-easy, food after
2022-06-30 11;10 2/10.7 cool, medium-easy, no food, nap after
2022-06-30 1541 2/0:09 cool, medium, food after
2022-06-30 1916 2/0:12.38 cool, medium-hard, nap after
2022-07-01 0746 long warm 4/unk cool, dissociated, food after
2022-07-01 1639 2/unk cool, easy-medium, food after
2022-07-01 1839 2/0:11.7 cool, easy-medium, food after
2022-07-01 1916 2/0:10.57 cool, easy-medium, nap after
2022-07-02 0134 2/unk cool, easy-medium, held pee

I can get flustered. I hit my head [again], hoping hard not to repeat, and again failed to properly use the timer.

But it's really inspiring to be succeeding again. I'm waiting to return to previous environment before raising time. Since the inhibitions could associate differently. Setting a strong baseline, is the hope atm.