On Wed, Jun 22, 2022, 6:50 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:


On Tue, Jun 21, 2022, 9:45 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:


On Mon, Jun 20, 2022, 8:32 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:


On Mon, Jun 20, 2022, 5:50 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:


On Sun, Jun 19, 2022, 7:47 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 - i started logging publicly to the list
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> again.
>>>>>>>> i
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> started
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> by just logging time spent on planning and thinking about
>>>>>>>> it.
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> after
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> two attempts i was able to do it rather than think about
>>>>>>>> it, with
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> effort.
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 0456 ET: [x] 10 seconds cold water after warm
>>>>>>>> water,
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> hard
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-10 1223 ET: [x] 10 seconds warm, 10 seconds cold.
>>>>>>>> easy.
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> food after.
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-11 0553 [X] 10 warm 10 cold with food
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-11 1247 [x] 10w 10c food easy
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 0217 [x] 9w 11c food after medium-easy
>>>>>>>> >>>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>> 2022-06-12 0848 [x] 8w 13c food after medium-easy
>>>>>>>> >>>>>
>>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 1852 [x] long w 13c food after medium-easy
>>>>>>>> >>>>
>>>>>>>> >>> 2022-06-13 0922 [x] 8w 13c food after medium-hard
>>>>>>>> >>>
>>>>>>>> >> 2022-06-13 1851 [x] long w 13c food after medium-hard
>>>>>>>> >>
>>>>>>>> > 2022-06-14 0702 [x] medium w 13c with food
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> 2022-06-14 2019 [x] 8/20w 13/31c food after, medium-easy
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> 2022-06-15 0824 [x] 8+13/? c food after, medium-easy, outdoors
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> 2022-06-15 1435 [x] 8+14/40c food after, irrational state of mind,
>>>>>> indoors
>>>>>>
>>>>> 2022-06-16 1502 69F 20/1:25cold 68F food after, easy, indoors
>>>>>
>>>> 2022-06-17 1051 21/1:04cold 67.4F food after, medium-easy, indoors
>>>>
>>> 2022-06-17 1929 unk warm, 22/1:20 cold, 58.8F, food after, medium,
>>> indoors
>>>
>> 2022-06-18 0921 53.7F 22/1:12 cold with food medium-hard
>>
> 2022-06-18 1653 53.7F 22/1:20 cold with hot food medium

2022-06-19 0736 56.4F 12/:30 cold + 22/1:15 cold with warm food, medium-hard

2022-06-20 0547 61.7F 22/1:36 with food and sugar cookie, hard to start, medium to do
2022-06-20 2029 22/1:23 65.3F with warmish food, medium-hard
2022-06-21 0942 23/1:35 65.4F with warm food, sugar cookie, and nutritional yeast, medium
2022-06-22 1845 long warm + 30/2:30 cool 61.7F hard-easy, food after
2022-06-24 0959 2:30 cool medium-easy with sugar cookie, food after

Somewhat confused. I miscounted but got the time. I like focusing on my shoulders with the idea of making it less scary to be about to enter.