noting that my betterhelp therapist just sent me a message, which is very rare. i’ve canceled betterhelp because they hiked the price. it’s very hard to visit the therapist. On Thu, Dec 7, 2023 at 20:37 Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
“trashh, abandon, and flee” a possibly psychotic state similar to a physical dissociation i’ve certainly seen people on both sides of it (having their stuff trashed and abandoned, or trashing things and getting hospitalized), as well as been on both sides myself (i think? in some way? could be wrong)
it maybe feels kind of like triggers that stimulate more triggers and kind of buzz, it’s really strong. i suspect part of its intent is to stimulate amnesia in everybody present regarding something that just happened, could be wrong !
paka/paga baga/baca takabaka paka ga
taga bik! 2032
2032
traffick boss jams a slave implant in his brain and stares at himself in the mirror, thinking “this is the face of the guy who will take down traffick boss” or such. his face keeps flickering in and out to him, like his presence in the world is schrodinger, as the implant works to rewire his brain to separate and manage threats to his businesses
2034
after his face disappears in the mirror for good, traffick boss takes the implant out again, as well as the chunk of his brain it isolated [from the rest ]—
2035
traffick boss: “owwwww.” traffick boss: “my poor brain.”
2035
owwww
ow.
ow.
our dissociation hurts bad.[we are presenting it this way. karl says it might be easier to manage.- uh oops
ahhh! eek!
2036
suddenly traffick boss has a dissociative seizure where different parts of him are urgently trying to acquire strong control over parts of his body in conflict. his muscles twitch and vibrate in different ways. [maybe cryptogr—