On 6/1/23, Undiscussed Groomed for Male Slavery, One Victim of Many <gmkarl+brainwashingandfuckingupthehackerslaves@gmail.com> wrote:
maybe given i’m near some eeg ideas, and also the idea of meditation, maybe holding this idea of two oberlapping parts each of which has triggers they respond to but also environments that comfort them, for each of their own parts and areas
,aybe holding this idea can help a little, form some comprehension of, say, how can we not stimulate problems here? how can we have experiences that heal us a little, safely?
my largest difficulties are past internal conflicts around my use of intense willpower in a moment that was for some uncertain reason very meaningful activities like simply standing up or developing personal notes right now i’d really love to stand up. [i imagined resolving this at the retreat i interviewed poorly for, interesting to think of, a hypnotic component, also an obligatory component, and a significant environmental component and the meditation] writing it like that, i can somewhat 8magine copying the belief into a space here, maybe engaging a lot of pensiveness and intentionality; it’s more delicate but has the reliability that i can plan for some of it much more