My dearest Juan,
If I want to be an Atheist, a Shinto, a Jew, a Christian, or whatever, is my problem. It's my opinion, my faith, my personal belief.
So, if I want to believe in a hypothetical God full of love and compassion, the problem is mine. Only mine, Juan.
I do have the right of imagining how would be God if They exist. I know I can be completely wrong about Their kindness and compassion, but... well... so what? Who does care about my religious opinion? Certainly, not you. :)
And already read the Bible sometimes. It's very confused and contradictory. A horrible fiction book.
Take care, my dear, and eat lots of chocolate with urgency, please. I love you, but your bad mood is really annoying in some moments, aff... :P
c.