On 7/4/23, ilsa <ilsa.bartlett@gmail.com> wrote:
Progressive spectral demylinization
On Tue, Jul 4, 2023, 3:42 PM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Ilsa, I just found your email. For some reason I hadn’t noticed it earlier.
Thank you for your story.
The cypherpunks sadly don’t seem to be here much anymore. I have also suffered significant cognitive problems and it’s part of what I am posting when I post. It looks like some of the others have too. I’m curious what the name of yours is. I don’t know the name of mine, although often I make something up partly similar.
I don’t want or plan to toy with or hurt you, but people have done that to me and to people I have connected with, and I have a dissociated identity that can sometimes try to do this. It’s reducing strongly over time though. Generally I don’t think of the real cypherpunks as harmful at all, especially nowadays, I don’t know of course.
Thank you for your kind words and thoughts.
Anthony is a cyberpunk who was a member of this group and told me that I would be interested in listening to and knowing what this group was doing and I've enjoyed it for 20 years He was a real genius and he was my kind friend he'd answer all of my digital questions things I couldn't understand and fix and he did everything for me that he could He wanted me to continue my work of helping people so I didn't have to worry about viruses and problems. An angel is coming to help me go through my my paperwork and eventually I will write a book but that's why Anthony papillon came into my life Yeah He was my friend he died of diabetes a couple years ago and I miss him terribly He's the person that brought me to the cyberpunks and I've enjoyed it immensely I'm 78 years old and because of my cancer they miss my breast and shot my brain and so I have a neurodegenerative disease you know progressive I'll always get worse until somebody comes and discovers a cure This is the first time I've had any kind of conversation with a cyberpunk I hope I'm not in danger
On Mon, Jun 26, 2023, 11:17 AM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On 6/24/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
ilsa,
On 6/24/23, ilsa <ilsa.bartlett@gmail.com> wrote:
ilsa is here listening
I did not properly remember your flurry of emails because I was warned, as a naive innocent, that some of the cypher punks might toy with me in a way that I would not be able to protect myself ever. God bless Anthony, for more than 15 years He was fun. So if you want to chitchat again I'd be mighty delighted
I’m trying out saying this: I don’t understand; what do you mean? I might also say these: I don’t think it is the cypherpunks doing that. Who is Anthony?
What are you interested in talking about?
I'm having some spasmodic experiences, but I appreciated your attempts to send me positivity. I'll stop spamming right now.
On Sat, Jun 17, 2023, 12:56 PM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
> On 6/17/23, ilsa <ilsa.bartlett@gmail.com> wrote: > > Delightful > > > > On Sat, Jun 17, 2023, 12:19 PM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One > > Victim > > & > > Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote: > > > >> > knock on the window and beg to be let in, arms so tired > > i’m tired of being nasty > > i need help that i haven’t found > > yet, everyone wants to help, and i help myself. > > many others here need help too. > > when i first started posting on this list i wanted to add
On 6/27/23, ilsa <ilsa.bartlett@gmail.com> wrote: positivity.
> > [i sent a flurry of emails to ilsa prior to this] >