> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > .. he idea of helping slave boss > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss has a rainbow problem in his flower garden. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > the problem is that psychedelic colors are on not just the petals of > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > his flowers, but also his own skin > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss [traveling landscape with torture victim double agent]: > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "why do you let me h--" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss pauses and rethinks his expression > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > [here we're considering if harm could be reduced in the pattern > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > without worsening the power dynamics > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent has a problem that everybody he knows is > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > in poverty and has multiple medical problems unseen before by science > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > so in a way both parties win, in that they are casting their successes > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > as reducing the behaviors of the other > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent's joy comes from not having to choose to > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > hurt people with part of his brain > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > third party: "oh no the situation is not uncommon" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss looks at third party and torture victim double agent > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "although slave boss loves me as his most > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > doting devotee, he wants me to leave him for a little time now." > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss [with torture victim double agent apart, to third party > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > with camera]: "the word 'now'-- > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss, third party with camera (who also visited torture victim > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > double agent), and torture victim double agent are all three apart > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss is running after third party with camera. his plan: to say > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > that torture victim double agent plans his murder and request > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > protection > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent is chatting up third party with camera. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > like slave boss, he had also decided to run after third party with > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > camera, but was nearer from being engaged last > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > when slave boss appears on the horizon, torture victim double agent is > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > visibly struck with intense terror for his life > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent is clutching a leg of third party with > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > camera, staring at slave boss with eyes as wide as saucers as if > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > nothing in the world matters, muscles tensed up, shaking violently > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > oops sent without content > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss is talking to a different third party > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss: "i really don't have any ability to love; this is what my > > > > > > > > > > > > > > therapist says" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent jumps in. "slave boss! you know how to love!" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss looks at torture victim double agent furiously > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "your father tried to rape the love out > > > > > > > > > > > > > > of you but you care! you value things! there's a human being under > > > > > > > > > > > > > > there!" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss expresses subtle fury > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent picks up one of slave boss's cigars then > > > > > > > > > > > > > looks at and it drops it on the floor in fear > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent looks at second third party > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "long ago slave boss was forced into > > > > > > > > > > > > > organized crime and had to pray to somebody who always told him to > > > > > > > > > > > > > fuck a blender, and really honestly believe that this was what was > > > > > > > > > > > > > good and right to do" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss: "i think that torture victim double agent would like me to > > > > > > > > > > > > leave now." slave boss looks at second third party. "however, i would > > > > > > > > > > > > like to know if you can help." > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > first third party comes into the room briefly > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > second third party: "it sounds like when you would like torture victim > > > > > > > > > > > double agent to leave, he leaves, but when he would like you to, you > > > > > > > > > > > don't? is this correct?" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > notes are being taken > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > third third party: "we are interested in helping the victims here." > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > {{{{ > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > there is sadly a situation in america where people who can clearly > > > > > > > > > > explain being victims are the only people who are generally helped. > > > > > > > > > > sometimes if a third party can clearly explain somebody is a victim, > > > > > > > > > > and then consent to being helped, then they are helped. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > sadly this leaves out almost everybody from aid. but it does keep the > > > > > > > > > > set of people aided to a workable number and focuses on people capable > > > > > > > > > > of adding clear useful information, which is helpful. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > i do not work in these things, these are just my observations. > > > > > > > > > > i guess we can derive that the prison system is used by slave boss as > > > > > a way to protect himself from something very scary by restraining > > > > > people who might get in his way and sending blame away from himself by > > > > > supporting it > > > > > > > > > > it's confusing. there are of course many places that support focused > > > > > punishment; i'm in the minority having been exposed to this being > > > > > undesired as a larger thing, although many people question punishment > > > > > in general when not taught otherwise. [one of the challenges seems to > > > > > be laws; no longer having a norm of productive debate we set laws that > > > > > leave people out > > > > > > > > it's sad because christianity is a huge punishment-oriented religion > > > > that has actually helped people in very great need (most successful > > > > antitrafficking groups appear to be christian); with all these valid > > > > people expressing meaning of assassination of jesus, it's not likely > > > > to be right to not have punishment as an approach; we need it to > > > > understand it being used in the past (have not read bible myself so > > > > hard to say much here) > > > > > > but these people definitely want to punish bad things not good things > > > > it's not my space to analyze that as i'm not experienced in being christian. > > > > but i think the space of caring feeling relation with diverse groups > > would open that. > > > > and we also find huge marketing and influence spaces > > i suspect its our lack of productive debate and communication across > differences, combined with heavy influence, that makes situations like > that seem difficult rather than simple
now, media is huge. people get in media trances and all.
but a lot of that influence is not just media, a lot of it is more like the influence over tvda. people are in situations that involve coercion to not reveal them.
[[[i haven't voted since trump's first election oops]]] [[[if i do vote again soon, and it's for a national candidate, it will likely be because some part of me is telling me i have to, whether it's one part or the other, rather than an informed feeling choice of my own, until i have a _lot_ of therapy and recovery
well or if we have somebody new who values something like actually reliable communication, shielding, antitrafficking education, DID recovery, real end-user device security, dismantling of centralized and insecure digital infrastructure, or somesuch
we could add transformative mediation to that list of things i'd consider useful
arweave and bsv for president :D everything that happens will be on public log everywhere
tvda could have a ball
[elections of course are painful for everybody after seeing computers control them and not addressing that. but we're likely to retain a democracy in america (not certain, but likely). things will keep develop--
> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > in the fictional situation, torture victim double agent is able to > > > > > > > > > clearly _demonstrate_ that he needs help, by the nature of his coping > > > > > > > > > strategy, in an obscure and occasional way. this is slowly bringing > > > > > > > > > him help. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss: "you gotta understand. so many people ... like me ... have > > > > > > > > been killed by people like ... him." > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > camera present > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > third party: "would you save my life if i were in danger?" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > slave boss: "fuck no!" slave boss puts hand over mouth > > > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "slave boss has saved my life over and > > > > > > > over and ov-- > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "the situation here is not complicated, > > > > > > everybody's just scared of it going in some poor way." > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "slave boss is scared because he lives in > > > > > > fear. i'm scared because i live in fear. you guys are confused and are > > > > > > going to make a poor decision because we all speak nonverbal languages > > > > > > and only use english to manipulate people." > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "slave boss is very dangerous and should > > > > > > be restrained without being harmed. he and both need recovery. i don't > > > > > > fully understand the recovery he needs." > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "_but_ the whole world is corrupt and > > > > > > everybody is acting on that, spreading horrible things that slave > > > > > > thinks protect him to take advantage of, actually worsening his > > > > > > situation more and more producing more confusions like me." > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "so the camera is helpful because i > > > > > > forget everything i'm saying the moment after i say it unless i think > > > > > > there's some record" > > > > > > > > > > > > torture victim double agent: "and slave boss is the same way, he just > > > > > > has good habits for rapin' people successfully that he learned from > > > > > > his dad"