On 6/9/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Further thoughts include why the change in behavior developed, as well as what other behaviors and situations facilitated that, and how to include those complexities in addressing it.
I’m thinking there are maybe big categories here: - sensitized terror, triggers and experiences rooted in this - hypnotic/trancy persistence, loud false assumptions, repeated media - confusion, cognitive dissonance
thinking the second and third items there are pretty blurred together - personal internal trances (may also include personalized media without record) - coordinated or synchronistic behaviors of others (shifts one’s experiences and knowledge of agency and reason) - hypnotic engaging media (shifts focusing decisions towards stimulation patterns rather than choice) - external lies, disagreements, controversial news (taxes memory, brings assumptions into question, reduces normal habits for handling world) - internal conflicts, voices, etc (strengthens external impacts, can spread with and to other internal processes)
thinking on each external thing having an internal thing as we process, daydream, etc them, and how these internal things resonate and build with each other, and this resonating also happens externally. both externally and internally parts develop that attempt to direct other parts — either to sustain an important norm, or to strengthen the problem from attending to and considering it strongly.
what i mean by strengthening from attending is that some parts seem to listen to the problem and then support it, acting like a part of it. the various forms of the problem seem to often resonate with encouraging this, such as confusion+terror+media. meanwhile other parts speak against the problem, but the forms of influence these develop from and with seem quite different.
situations like terror and severe dissonance give areas of severe unsettlement where things can resonate and strengthen in unmoderated and often strongly defined ways