person and shadow i told this therapist that i lie (without meaning/wanting to). they asked me to let them know when i did. afterward, i was thinking the [times i told them inwas lying and wasn’t were backward, o was lying about lying 2006 [[i don’t really know how to talk with shadow, it’s really behavioral/influenced. maybe it’s holding the part of my mind around thinking about that … like often it just changes me but we might have come a long way 2008 there’s also a lot of missing connection i used to always listen for importance, but now that’s miswired, and that’s very nonintuitive, to have listening for things be numb [etc] but ! again ! :) it’s hard for me to remember that a decade has passed 2010 time for bed! uhhh i am trying to download three documents to post as spams but not quite getting ghem here, and thst’s confusing for me. maybe i can “wormhole” them or something looks like my phone died where i downloaded already 2012 2025 i think it would make sense to run a hotspot on the phone and ssh onto the phone to get the files. b