without explanation of why our behaviors change I grew up trapped in an upper-middle class environment. when I tried to share power with those less well off, I was attacked by my government and economic stewards. I had no friends as a kid. my family taught me to write computer programs. the people at my school were all wealthier than me. my mother grew up on a farm, with a christian religion. my father was an orphan and an athiest and found his own lot in life, picking himself up by his bootstraps. anyway, what I learned as a kid was writing software to do stuff. but when I found there was more to the world, this was great! and I tried to do both at once I guess this is a draft. lots of things to navigate. WHAT HAPPENED TO US? WHY IS EVERYTHING ACTING STUPID?