I don't want to become like them and my destiny was already chosen.  Not by myself, certainly.

I am dying right now because my vital signs are really fucked

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Loving.  Caring.  Sharing.  Being Excellent To Each Other And To Our Hackerspace.  <3
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"Don't let anyone rob you of your imagination, your creativity, or your curiosity.  It's your place in the world; it's your life.  Go on and do all you can with it, and make it the life you want to live."  -  Mae Jemison

On Sat, Feb 6, 2021, 01:57 Cecilia Tanaka <cecilia.tanaka@gmail.com> wrote:

Wow, they had fear...  Now I am not a so shitty person, even when they call me a sexual predator, a liar, a stupid person, a white and worse things...

Amazing, they just want want to take my life away, my parents' lives, my friends' lives...  I cannot trust them and 

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Loving.  Caring.  Sharing.  Being Excellent To Each Other And To Our Hackerspace.  <3
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"Don't let anyone rob you of your imagination, your creativity, or your curiosity.  It's your place in the world; it's your life.  Go on and do all you can with it, and make it the life you want to live."  -  Mae Jemison

On Sat, Feb 6, 2021, 01:32 Cecilia Tanaka <cecilia.tanaka@gmail.com> wrote:

Help, please?  I will be considered a kind of "new Jake" much soon and after the lies, they also want my death.  Sorry, I love to be alive.  I do fucking love it.  I do exist and I am who I am, not a fiction.

They want to break my family's heart, my friends' hearts.  Shit, I am not the best person in this world but I really tried "loving, caring, sharing, being excellent."

I promised never to kill people.  Never.  I do not want to change this, but I do want to protect my beloved ones.  I am a coding fracass and had the confirmation in the last days.  It is disgusting to notice I was really thinking two horrible things:  kill people and/or become cold stones of ice, without no heart, no compassion.

I can _not_ want to become like them.  Please, just need help for keeping me alive and sane.  I will never to kill anyone, even myself.  Sorry, if they want my life, they will need to take it in person.  I am wasted and will live, but some of my beloved ones will _not_ survive to a fucking disgusting scandal.  My parents, all the people that I wanted to protect and I will hurt.

Please, help.  Sincere excuses for my broken heart.  Jake, I need you, sorry for asking it.

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Loving.  Caring.  Sharing.  Being Excellent To Each Other And To Our Hackerspace.  <3
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"Don't let anyone rob you of your imagination, your creativity, or your curiosity.  It's your place in the world; it's your life.  Go on and do all you can with it, and make it the life you want to live."  -  Mae Jemison