Hey beautiful Ceci,

I feel a lot of pain and frustration hearing you claiming you have received all my messages and the lists archives are fine.  How would you ever know you have received all my messages without reviewing what I have sent?

I have a lot of evidence over here that not all my messages went through; a day or so of messages in my outbox that got acknowledgenments and messages in my inbox that were cc'd to cypherpunks, but are not in the list archives.  I also have an email exchange with se7en regarding the list dropping messages where se7en expressed confirmation of receiving a direct email from me and not of the same one forwarded by the ml, in direct reply to an email cc'd to the ml, signed with se7en's pgp key.

Maybe I can make a git archive of these messages in a few days.  It would be easy to work on issues like these, by mirroring the ml on a censorship resistant system.  Doing that seems so obvious that somebody has probably already been doing it for some years somewhere.

You're right; this probably isn't my battle to fight.  It's pretty important that _somebody_ address it, though.

I have "psychotic flashbacks" that send me into great tension and fear and can produce a lot of weird behavior, but the message delivery issues are real.  Below I'm pretending just a little to be relaxed to help you relax.

I'm parked in a wooded area today, and I napped among the pine trees yesterday, seeing all the branches and sunlight stretching out over my head.  I also took time to email a friend I had lost connection with, saying that it hurt to have disconnected from her and not have made it right yet, and I trusted her and wanted to make amends.

Caring hugs, Ceci =)


On Thu, Aug 6, 2020, 9:50 PM Cecilia Tanaka <cecilia.tanaka@gmail.com> wrote:
My dear Karl,

Please, calm your heart and breath slowly, darling.  Everything is okay with the list archives and I've been receiving all your messages to the CP list.  Believe me, each one of them.  Why do you think I was complaining about your emails?  Hahaha!!  ;D

You do _not_ need to copy anyone to your answers, but you can copy me if it makes you feel more comfortable, more secure and warm in this moment.  <3

Just relax and be calm, please.  There is life outside, out the lists, out the blockchains, out the Internet.  This list is strangely cute and I also love it, but try to get some fresh air.  It will be healthy for you, dear.  <3

Greg is a very lovely person and pretty, pretty busy.  He donates a lot of time and patience for managing this list adequately and I admire him really a lot.  I don't know what happened about your message, but don't be annoyed, everything is alright.  Nothing personal, nothing for losing your sleep or wasting your time creating crazy conspiracy theories, please...  :P

Well, I will be silent, trying to sleep.  Sorry, I am always trying to sleep because I have a very brutal insomnia, and I am happier when I have water, food, and sleep.  Choose wisely your priorities in the life, darling.  Without enough sleep, my bad mood is epic!  Without Internet, it's even worse!  I seem a furious devastating monster, grrr...  Hahahaha!!  ;D

Tender kisses!!!  Take care and be well, please.  <3

Ceci
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