Over past week, i accidentally let a mental process into some wrong areas, caused further buzzing and vibrating feelings. Took a lot of time to limit it to something manageable.

Another thing that's happened is wide bandwidth tinitis noise within a few minutes after waking up, lasting maybe a few hours or until I get occupied with something else. This experience replaces previous patterns that were much more unpleasant.

Some of the areas I can refer to in my mind are very dangerous, causing cognitive problems if misused. In trying to handle this I have occasionally referred to them over the past few years, and it is always quite sad, as the psychosis will copy that thinking it is useful for something.

The psychosis seems interested in protecting my mind overtly but completely unaware of these other areas that have caused great harm.

[biggest ones are maybe a handful it engaged from the start altering my maturity and intentionality somewhat, misuse of joking for harmful choices ...]