earlier: one of our experiences was being heavily pressured to engage [triggers]. we still are exposed to this. it produces a kind of 'cognitive trashing' as you repeatedly engage panic attacks and dissociate we also have a behavior of doing this. it rose from multiple places, some are repeated-self-harm, others - are good skills. this was part of our mind control experience: the 'cognitive trashing' like situations. the paniced state is in a sustained sense of emergency where it responds very strongly and urgently. it can develop slowly, or rapidly. the [trauma is triggered and timed at a pace that increases and is kept a little shorter than relaxation, in such a form that dissociation is built with skill. one part expects to almost relax, another part never experiences relaxation. [it is quite likely it was transferred via a digital algorithm experienced in stimulating it.]] ok; we have trigger associated with share part. which has a potential mistake label, smallish. ['cognitive trashing' similar to 'sensitization'; is flashback part; part of how mc is built, maybe big part] [review indicated possible strong likelihood that our mc was built via well-trained digital algorithm ~2013]