On Sun, Jan 28, 2024 at 22:54 Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
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i was thinking of writing joke about recent sleeping experiences where part of me resists entering sleeping thing after i added insulating things for warmth and i end up falling asleep right where i am instead, which would be humorous if i was like walking around
2252 sadly this started after new therapist recommended i burn engine for warmth in vehicle. i think they were scared for my warmth. to me it seems very irresponsible as i have warm bedding. basically they didn’t understand how it would impact me and it’s pretty hard to convey, people don’t believe or expect the harmful parts of what they say would be hypnotically suggestive
i guess there’s reason to consider this more. i think basically the two ideas (handmade insulation and burning gas) and the individuals (karl, traffick boss / mind control, thetapist) lined up along the axis of dissociation (grubby hippie activist vs traditional conservative capitalist business) (the therapist doesn’t look hippie-like visually at all) (expression interrupted. 2301 2229
i should probably use food reward to move toward bedding (rather than sleeping-in-place
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