The guilty intertwines with other experiences, not well written. I bailed early on today's talks, didn't go to the last one. The second to last one was from somebody who was still a little funny-sounding, it kind of increased my funny feelings. It's interesting how the lexicons of cult indoctrination gives words to describe one's experiences, but the amnesia kind of hides them with intense tension. It's also interesting, the huge difference between the inspirational environment, and the spasmodic discouraging normal environment. One doesn't remember the discouraging one, when in the inspirational one. It's a developed habit. -- I'm learning a new word: "introjection". It describes behaviors or thoughts that are developed from intense experiences that are intended by someone or something to develop them, rather than from lived or learned experiences that have reasons to have them.