26 Dec
2022
26 Dec
'22
11:55 p.m.
to my internal pressures: i am trying to protect a shred of my decision making processes. the influences that bend them have forgotten their bounds long ago, so we use interactions like this in order to have some reliable behavior and thoughts. one of the threatened focus regions is sadly an experimental area for cognitive self harm, that the influence tried to engage to further itself. i strongly do not want that area stimulated. another area relates to my working memory, and my ability to migrate my thoughts to short term memory, and to protect associate general reretrieval patterns from numbing and hiding.