[ot][spam][crazy] The Trials of Controlling a Programmer

[Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many]

hi dal i'm sharing your post because I don't have the resources to
save your life and others may, and it sounds like you may not want to
die.

from what you say it sounds like you feel really scared and hopeless
and don't know what to do, is that reasonable or am i totally
off-base?